NATAL NOISES, FATAL FLAWS

Muskaan Razdan


I took my mother’s tooth, I needed bones. She pushed me

a month early, she needed joy. An understanding

to take what’s needed without asking, without needing to,

even before birth. Crouched on a couch, she crochets 

veins to protect me. I become hope, before a body. Fattening her

heart with promise. A foetus learns language in the womb. Silence 

meant rage. Piercing my placenta, forming cysts of suppression.

I replied with itches against sheer skin. She soothed me. Clawing herself,

creating upward trails. She said, for you I’ll pray

(Amniotic fluid reverbs her voice)

I learned,

for you I’ll prey.

Muskaan Razdan is an Indian poet based in London. She is currently part of the Roundhouse poetry collective and was selected as a member of the Apples and Snakes Writers Room 2022. Her work often interrogates topics of womanhood, family dynamics and societal issues. Instagram: @razdan.muskaan, Twitter: @MuskaanRazdan.